But I’m going to find it. This is not the first time it’s been lost, we have both lost it from time to time. This time I lost it. I am sure I just misplaced it. It has got to be here somewhere between that college paperwork, sport schedules and report cards.
I have excuses for losing it. It’s been such a busy spring. Megan was home for a month then I had to get her off to an internship in Atlanta with Chick-fil-a™. Emily graduated, and we had celebration after celebration amidst finalizing college scholarship decisions. And the boys needed a lot of extra motivation to finish that last quarter without blowing their GPA.
To make matters worse, not only did I misplace that lovin’ feeling-I replaced it with a grudging feeling-Why doesn’t he (Mark) help me more? He never notices how pressed I am. I am slammed at work and at home and he wants me to do what? Grudgin’ is a bad feeling, but at the time it feels…good.
Today my hunt for that lovin’ feeling becomes a priority. Grudgin’ is out. Mark is going to be in shock! He probably won’t recognize me. I am going to be there when he gets home. I’m going to greet him when he walks in. I am going to follow him up to our room and hang up his clothes for him. I am going to make dinner. I am going to take him for a walk on the Bayshore. I’m going to take him home and then… well, I am hoping I will have found that lovin’ feeling.
